"I took the LSAT for the fourth time today" is something I never thought I would say (or type). It is also something I would not feel particularly proud of, or something I would not feel particularly interested in sharing.
Having always been of the mind that one always gets the fruits of one's labor, especially if one puts in the labor, the LSAT has been a true test of that mindset and my personal willpower. Also, having always been a "(wo)man with a plan", the LSAT has wormed its way into my so-called plans and into my life.
What do you do when something knocks you down, not once, not twice, but three times? Do you learn to settle? Do you give up? Do you get back to work and try again? You will probably hear mixed messages, as was the case for me. Advice on settling for me sounded like: "Settle for a school your current score can get you into - in the end you will get a great job!" and advice on giving up for me sounded like: "It's likely you've plateaued and your score won't get any higher; do you think law is right for you?"
The thought of giving it another go was crushing. But neither of these options sounded right to me; neither of these options felt right to me. I knew what I wanted, and while the details weren't exactly shaping up for me yet, it felt wrong for me to settle or give up.
Fast-forward to today, post-LSAT, and I have no answers. Will I get the score I need? Where will I go to law school? All I know is that, in the end, it's all going to work out, and I will be made better and stronger for it. In the meantime, I'll just make adjustments.