Working on Me
Poetry by Tunisia Nelson
I thought I was ready to face my biggest opponent yet
Me.
I walked into that room full of fervor knowing that there is nothing that anyone can tell me about
me.
I have done it all, lived this life, hurt, abused, molested, pain But I have made it right I went to
school I got a degree...two of them actually and will probably get a third, I own a home, I got
married, I have a cat, almost own a car, a career
I
Have
Made
It
So why do I feel so unfulfilled
What is missing, I followed the plan
The goal, to not be a stereotype, to not be stuck, to be better...
Yet when I strolled into that room full of confidence
Not really remembering why I started this journey, but knowing I had encouraged several before me
When she said Tunisia, why are you here?
It was at that moment I experienced fear
I could not answer
I could not recall I did not know
I can admit I still don’t know but what I do know is to be better
I have to heal
To be free
I have to heal
To live
I have to heal
Existing is no longer acceptable.
Me.
I walked into that room full of fervor knowing that there is nothing that anyone can tell me about
me.
I have done it all, lived this life, hurt, abused, molested, pain But I have made it right I went to
school I got a degree...two of them actually and will probably get a third, I own a home, I got
married, I have a cat, almost own a car, a career
I
Have
Made
It
So why do I feel so unfulfilled
What is missing, I followed the plan
The goal, to not be a stereotype, to not be stuck, to be better...
Yet when I strolled into that room full of confidence
Not really remembering why I started this journey, but knowing I had encouraged several before me
When she said Tunisia, why are you here?
It was at that moment I experienced fear
I could not answer
I could not recall I did not know
I can admit I still don’t know but what I do know is to be better
I have to heal
To be free
I have to heal
To live
I have to heal
Existing is no longer acceptable.
About the writer
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Tunisia Nelson was born in Los Angeles but raised in Bakersfield, CA. She is a Social Worker for Children and Families. She obtained her BA degree in Psychology and went on to obtain her MSW from Cal State Long Beach. She enjoys the ocean (despite her inability to swim), spending time outdoors, and enjoying and learning about all aspects of being a new home owner. She is an avid writer who has just begun to share the intimacy that is her pen. Her poem “Start Mourning” has been featured in the Eunoia Review. Her poems "Hunger" and "The Question" have been featured in Iō Literary Journal.
Instagram: @NewNappy27 Website: Rarewomenofficial.com |